1. Help me find a way to go back to the time when sad and angry were two separate emotions.
    Forgiveness, perhaps?
    Your last chance to kill the pain?
    Stupid theories.
    It's useless to philophize and meditate if you never put those words into actions.
    I know I've drifted apart, but I'm coming back. I promise I'll change with Your help.
    I can't do this anymore. I'm all in Your hands now. You do this for me.
    I love You.

2. Thank You for him.
     Love?
     =)
     How should you know? It's not like you've felt it before.
    Oh well.
    At least you're smiling.
    Thank You for everything. I've heard good news are better kept inside. 
    Maybe it makes them more special and cherished.
    But You know things so much better. I'm eternally thankful to You.

=)

Change can be good. Yet day by day we see how good people change for bad, and it's such a disgrace. What does this mean? That eventually we will all be dragged into the darkness?

Of course not. If we know something's wrong, we need to change, otherwise we can't contribute to the good in this world. If we don't change what's wrong and we don't mend our mistakes, it will be like having a disease and never even bothering to find a cure.

There are always going to be hard times, it's guaranteed, but it's up to us to fight against the negativity and the wrong...like the eagle in the storm, flying high and making his way through the skies, with grey clouds and thunders flocking below him, but still he manages to fly above it.

So don't be afraid to change. And don't regret not being the better person you once were, instead try to be the even better person you never were, because there are always flaws to dismantle and mistakes to mend. Still, you never lose your essence. I believe that there's a pure, happy child inside all of us. And it's the only thing that stops us all from going insane.

                                                                                                                           ...We Are More Or Less The Same.     

Merry Christmas to everybody, and happy new year!

Well, guess what? I already have my New Year goals.

Check them out.

1. Get A or A* in all my GCSE exams.
2. Be a better daughter/friend/student/person.
3. Start working out.
4. Work hard at guitar lessons.
5. Be happier than this year.
6. Fall in love with someone from here, who loves me back.
7. Forget him.

Honey, you are a rock
Upon which I stand.
And I come here to talk,
I hope you understand.

Grey eyes,
The spotlight shines upon you.
How could anybody deny you?

I came here with a load,
And it feels so much lighter now I met you.
Honey, you should know,
That I can never go without you.
Grey eyes.

Honey, you are the sea
Upon which I float.
AndI came here to talk,
I think you should know.

Grey eyes,
You're the one that I wanted to find.
An anyone who tried to deny you
Must be out of their mind.

Because I came here with a load,
And it feels so much lighter since I met you.
Honey, you should know
That I can never go on without you.
Grey eyes.

Honey, you are a rock
Upon which I stand.



Green Eyes by Coldplay.
Thought I'd give them credit.
But all the credit, YOU deserve it. Even though you'll never ever read this.
Thank you for making me feel alive, and for being my rock. I couldn't go on without you.

Life can be sad, but it is always beautiful.
:D

Hey there.
I'm probably not in the best mood but that's why I'm writing.
Whatever it is, it doesn't feel too bad. It's a mixture of hopelessness and tranquility. A merry tranquility.

Ever taken somebody for granted? Well, don't. Even if he doesn't mean much to me, I just thought he'd be there and now he turned me down. 
Oh well, who cares about that? At least I was able to learn from that, it is a valuable lesson indeed.
And that's what life's all about; learning from mistakes. Getting up with an authentic grin after falling. 

Maybe someday I'll find a deeper meaning. It's part of my adolescent nature to believe I know everything. I don't. I still have lots to understand...and maybe most things I won't be able to understand, and I might as well just have to accept that. 


                                                                                                                                                     ...I Know I'm Alone Now.




 

I want to cry, but I'm not able to do so.
This is what happens when life hits you twice, when you trip with the same stone.
Well, actually, this is the fourth time.

Even though we're miles away I still love him. I get jealous whenever he fancies somebody, and I'm always thinking whether if he likes me or not. I don't want to care anymore. Right now I feel that actually I can look at him like a friend, but I've been there so many times. I've convinced myself I had forgot him, but this feeling always comes back to haunt me.

I've been told that when you hit the bottom, all you can do next is get up. My mother told me that sometimes it's not like that, sometimes you reach the bottom and stay there forever.

I don't know if it's teenage angst, but everything seems to be a downward spiral right now. 
At least I know how it tastes like, at least I took the risk and now I'm living life fully.  Sure life leaves scars, but it teaches you valuable things out of the worst experiences. At least I learned that nothing can be too bad - there's always something positive to learn. I just wish I could be naïve again, unafraid of suffering.

Anyway...it's been a really long road for me, and I'm not too keen to see that it goes on. Where is it leading me?